The Universe has stomped on me thread. Rant or clear the air

[CJ]

I almost experienced a mild heart attack a few minutes ago. While I was caring groceries to my front door, Kujo snuck up beside me, and tried to come into my house with me. It took everything in me not to have a panic attack near that dog. Surprisingly, he wasn’t hostile this time. No barking, growling, or attempts to bite me, I think I dodged a bullet this time. After the dog lost interest in me, and I placed my groceries inside, I went next door to let the neighbor know the dog was loose. Turns out the damn dog really is named Kujo, which is a very appropriate name for him.

[Dr Frankenollie]

^ Good lord! I hope you're okay.

Turns out the damn dog really is named Kujo, which is a very appropriate name for him.

By the sound of it, that beastly dog should be put down.

[Scarred4life]

By the sound of it, that beastly dog should be put down.

No he doesn't, he just needs a proper owner, who can train him. And that's so funny that his name is actually Cujo!

[Elladorine]

CJ- Thankfully he wasn't hostile this time. I certainly hope the owner can keep better tabs on him though!

[slave2moonlight]

Well, a year and a half ago, I left my job to go to Austin and try to find something better (couldn't live on my old job, couldn't find anything else). I finally had a place to stay, because my sister had moved to Austin. Not the best city for me to find a GOOD job, but any change had to be better. I have spent the past year and a half sleeping on her floor and applying for countless jobs of all kinds (my art degree seems to be useless, I can't even find jobs just looking for college graduates in general that are non-degree-specific; heck, I can't even land jobs that just ask for high school graduates). I have never even landed more than a couple of interviews.

Right before I left my hometown, my dad got diagnosed with Leukemia. I have since been making trips back and forth and all over the place taking care of my parents, because not too long ago, my mother was diagnosed with cancer too. I lost my dad last month.

After being alone my whole life (I have never even gotten to kiss anyone yet), I met a girl who was like right out of my dreams. I could never spend time with her though, because I had to keep making trips to help my parents, sometimes being gone for months at a time. I'm on another of those visits right now, taking my mom to chemo. This girl, who lived in Austin and whom I corresponded with online for like a year, ended up getting a boyfriend before we got to meet (probably about 4 months into our correspondence. We kept in touch though. We really had sooo much in common, and I swear, this girl was a goddess in every way, too. I adored her before even meeting her, but a million times more when we finally did meet, almost a year after I started talking with her (we found each other on a dating site that otherwise was a deadzone for me). For a month or so, I didn't have to make any trips south, and I had many dates with this girl. I took her out a lot, I cooked for her a lot, we watched Disney movies and Sailor Moon together. We were an amazing match. She even broke up with her boyfriend partway through, because she had been having trouble with him. Problem was, they lived together.

Things were going great, we were getting closer and closer. She was still living with the then ex-boyfriend because she had to have a roommate and didn't know anyone else in town, and I hadn't found a job yet. But she wasn't sure if she wanted to move in with a new boyfriend so quickly anyway. We never got around to kissing. She kept saying she wanted to take it very slow, and she hadn't even officially claimed me as a new boyfriend yet, though it seemed to be going well in that direction. We got to the cuddling point, and that was epic for me. Though, we didn't get to do that very often (it was kinda difficult, as my sister doesn't have a couch). Then, I had to go home again to help my parents, both of them being sick at this point. That's when my father died, which we weren't expecting at that particular time. I ended up having to stay much longer than planned. About a month maybe. I came back, and everything had changed. Even though the girl I was dating had been having horrible problems trying to continue living with her ex (one time she even said he was getting violent on her, and he had to go to a psychiatrist and was now on pills and diagnosed with schizophrenia and other stuff), and even though I suggested many times for us to plan to get a place together so she could escape that nut, while I was away dealing with my father's death and my mom's new cancer situation, they patched things up.

So, I not only lost my dad, but the girl of my dreams, and now my mom was needing chemo, I still was jobless and sleeping on my sister's floor, and everything just sucked.

As well as things seemed to be going, a nice guy just can't win against a "bad boy", and I seem to have lost out on this girl, whom I am very much in love with. Of all the tragic stuff I've been dealing with, this is what I am most upset by. I really adored her and can't see how anyone can follow her. Actually, I've heard all the, "You'll find someone better," stuff, but that's not what I'm looking to hear. I don't really believe in that fate stuff. I might have if this had worked out, ha, but... my cousin also died shortly after my father. He just suddenly died. He was like the same age as me, around 36, and he was just dead one morning. I think he, like me, also probably had never even kissed anyone yet. We are the shy, nice-guy types women just aren't interested in. Despite the ones who say that is not true, like the girl I was dating who still chose her abusive ex over me. I could easily not wake up one morning, like my cousin, and I don't want that to happen before I've had some romance in my life. But, I don't want to settle for just anyone who will have me either, and after meeting this girl... I don't know how I could be with anyone less perfect for me now... So, I guess I'm just venting, because I've had a taste of the consoling, and it's a lot of generic words of comfort, ha. But appreciated in a way, don't get me wrong.

Anyway, I came back to take my mom to her chemo appointments and be here for the holidays. I will head back to Austin after Christmas. I have more to be worried/stressed about now though. If I don't find a job during the month of January (and I have no reason to feel optimistic), I will be homeless. My mom is selling her house and moving out of state with my older sis. Like I said, I've been sleeping on my little sister's floor in Austin, but she will be moving in with her new boyfriend in February. So, yeah, end of January, I have nowhere to go. It's pretty freaky, because I've never lived all alone, let alone under an overpass. I'm trying to sell stuff and do countless little art commissions right now to raise money for a first month's rent, gas, and utilities, internet, and a computer to do commissions and job applications on, but I really think I'm fooling myself that I'm even going to be able to pull that off.

[slave2moonlight]

Well, things just keep getting worse. The chemo/radiation treatments didn't work well enough for my mom. She will need harsher treatments for about 3 more weeks.

[Elladorine]

Nathan: once again, I'm sorry to hear about your dad and that your mom is sick now too.

I hope I don't sound at all harsh like I'm afraid I will, but after reading about your overall situation I'm pretty worried about you. You've got a very uncertain future ahead of you since you'll no longer be able to live with your younger sister. Have you thought about looking up shelters in the area? Not only can they provide a certain amount of room and board, they can often help you find jobs, even if they're only temporary ones to get you by. Have you gone to any job centers? Have you looked into retail or the food industry at all? While generally low in pay, there's usually enough turnover for them to consistantly offer some type of employment, and when you're facing the prospect of being homeless, minimum wage is better than nothing. Is there a reason you can't move out of state with your mom and older sister for the time being? Since she's so sick I would think they'd love to have you around to help out with things. Are they ok with knowing they'll be leaving you homeless or are they shrugging it off (like my own brother once did to me)?

I do feel for you. We lost my middle brother when he was only 19 (car accident), my mom when I was still a teenager at home (cancer), and my dad when I was still in my 20's (also cancer). While my mom had various forms of cancer she battled through for three years, it was that last 6 months of slowly watching her die that will never leave me. And I missed out on the last few months of my dad's life while struggling to make things work with my ex (which I now deeply regret, I should have just dumped his ass and moved back in with my dad to take care of him). I've spoken about it here a little in the forum and at dA already, but I recently lost one of my cousins as well due to cancer (and actually, her oldest son died from a heart attack when he was close to our age, so I related to losing your cousin so young as well). When my ex and I broke up, I never felt more alone in the world; while a complete jerk, he was the only stability I had in my life. Then again, he ended up owing me several grand by the time he left, so go figure. All he ever did to rectify what happened between us was mail me $50 after I gave him a guilt trip over the horrid situation he left me in, and he IM'd me an offer to mow my grass in exchange for sex (he'd actually stolen my lawnmower when he moved out so my yard was outta control), but that's a different story altogether (yes, I did refuse his "offer," and sorry, had to lighten the mood a little). I became several months behind on all my bills and soon found an eviction notice on my door. That was one of the lowest points in my life. I had no running car, no food for the cat, no company for Christmas Day, and had to swallow my pride and ask for help from an old friend's parents (couldn't start a new job without a car). They managed to help me move my car to a mechanic (which ate up the very last of my savings) as I struggled through a couple of jobs that didn't work out. I had to sort through a lifetime's worth of belongings trying to figure out what to save and what to donate, my limitation being what I could fit in my car. Let's see . . . had to keep my cat, clothes, family photos, my artwork, some books, movies, a wall clock that belonged to my parents . . . I ended up leaving behind most of my animation books, comics & manga, my desktop PC, my (expensive!) stereo, the furniture my parents left me, and nearly all of my beloved Disney and Sailor Moon collectibles (I kick myself whenever I see how much the SM merch I no longer have is going for now), simply because there was only so much room in my car . . . I moved in with a friend for a few months, who was kind enough to accept some of my furniture as rent payment instead of cash until enough could be scraped up for a new place to move to along with traveling expenses . . . when I left the midwest, I didn't plan on looking back. Too many painful memories. All the while my one surviving brother was shrugging off the money he owed me while commenting that I was going to end up as a "bag lady" on the street (our dad left us a house and he hasn't bought out my half or shared any of the rent he's made off it). So nice to have the support of family, isn't it?

Giving up so much on top of the very real fear of losing everything changed me. For the better I hope, but who knows. I still like to collect things (like Disney movies) but I'm far less attached to material possessions these days. But that's neither here nor there . . . I realize that the point of this thread is to vent and that's what you needed to do, so I really hesitate with this in fear that I'll sound harsh, but do you think it's possible that the girl you've been interested in went back to her ex for reasons you haven't considered? Maybe it's not really the "nice guy" vs. the "bad boy," but more that she's looking for stability? I stayed with my ex far longer than I should have, in denial that he was emotionally (and later physically) abusive because I felt I had nowhere to go and didn't know how on earth I was going to survive on my own. Even if it was never brought up, maybe she felt she couldn't wait any longer for you to get a job and be able to afford half of your potential future together, opting instead for something old and familiar, even if it wasn't the healthiest decision to make.

Rewinding a little here . . . I've got a friend down in Florida that I briefly considered dating way back when I was super-lonely and completely inexperienced. We started out as pen-pals (in the days before the internet was common) and eventually started speaking on the phone quite a bit. We even met up in person at one point; really nice guy. Had a great time with him and had so much to talk about . . . he was really into Japanese culture (I was more into it myself back then than now) and Disney animation . . . but that was about it. He wanted to go out with me, but he spent 90% of his life wandering from place to place, homeless. Sometimes he'd have a room mate, but usually he had a tent somewhere or stayed at a shelter while working an occasional job. He seemed more than happy with his situation though. I barely made enough to support myself and couldn't support him on top of that . . . but with as lonely as I was and as nice of a guy he was, I still really couldn't see a future with him. And before anyone accuses me of being shallow, we have to sense things with our minds as well as our hearts; relationships are much more than about love, they also have to be practical in order to work. Don't take this the wrong way, but maybe she was concerned that you were sleeping on your sister's floor and was afraid to take things any further.

Nathan, you're a great guy, you're talented, you're witty, and you have a lot to offer the world. I know the last thing you wanna hear from someone else is that there's someone out there for you, but really, it's also the last thing you should be worried about right now, this girl or not. I know things aren't easy but try to take care of yourself before worrying about sharing your life with someone else and taking on their needs in addition to your own. I've struggled many, many times with jobs myself so I know how hard it is, and apparently I had to reach rock-bottom before I was able to get my life back on track. I know it sucks and I know it isn't fair, but right now you have to concentrate on surviving if you're going to make it through this part of your life.

I truly hope you get things figured out soon, and I hope you haven't taken any of this the wrong way. I'll be especially worried if you lose your online connection in the next few months and we have no way of knowing how you're doing (remember that you can often get free internet at libraries so you can drop us a line, if it comes down to it). Sending good thoughts and hugs your way.

Well, things just keep getting worse. The chemo/radiation treatments didn't work well enough for my mom. She will need harsher treatments for about 3 more weeks.

Sigh . . . really sorry to hear that. My dad actually refused chemo because he saw what that stuff did to my mom. Just try to be there for her as much as you are able so she can rest as much as possible between treatments. Hope the next three weeks go well.

[Disney's Divinity]

slave2moonlight, I can definitely relate to a lot you're going through, if you can believe that--although I won't patronize you by saying I know what you're going through with a lot of other things. The job thing has been the hardest thing for me these past 4 years, too, and I know how hopeless it can feel to constantly apply for places and never get hired or even interviewed. All I can really do is wish you and your mother (and your ex-girlfriend) luck and hope you'll keep us updated.

[slave2moonlight]

Thanks, Disney's Divinity and Enigmawing.

Can't really call her my ex though, D.D., because we were never officially boyfriend and girlfriend.

E.W., nah, I didn't find that harsh, unless I missed something or wasn't reading it with the right inflections, ha.

I haven't looked into shelters yet, but I will if it seems like I will have to go that route, thanks. I have pretty much tried for all kinds of jobs at this point, but I don't get interviewed. I AM a bit scared to take anything too physical. I am not in THAT good of shape, but more importantly, I can't afford any medical care if something happens. I have had people tell me I should try applying for jobs in person, but the businesses always just direct me to the online application, ha. I have tried employment agencies, but I never hear back from them. Not sure what a job center is. Everything seems to be online now though, even the employment agencies, and it just makes me feel like no one is even reading anything I send or fill out, or I am completely unqualified for ANYTHING. As for living with my older sister, I'm afraid they really don't even have room for my mom, and they have a little one on the way, but there are other complications there as well. No one wants to put me on the street, ha, but they have their own lives to live and we are all in tight financial situations right now. My mom is trying to arrange bankruptcy right now, and I've got student loan and car payments over my head too. I am not expecting to find better than a minimum wage job anymore if I find anything, but I don't know how I could cover everything on just that. Don't worry though, I will figure something out.

I know what you're saying about not even thinking about romance right now. But the thing about me is, at 36, I have never had anyone, and yet that has always been what I wanted more than anything. Asking me to not think about it is like asking a starving person not to think about food. Most people can't imagine what it's like to have never even kissed anyone at 36. And the idea of just putting it off, for any reason, is less comfortable knowing that the older you get, the more limited your dating pool becomes. I am trying to focus on these other problems, but it is extremely difficult for me.

Especially when the first girl who actually shows that she can even see me in a romantic light finally comes along, and she just happens to be the girl of my dreams in every way. That also is a tough thing not to think about or to get over, especially when she instead chooses someone who mistreated her. But, yeah, I'm sorry to say I've analyzed all the reasons she might have decided to not be with me. Most don't really add up. What you suggest is the most likely second choice, I suppose, but there are reasons I find it unlikely as well. Please keep in mind that I'm not a guy who has been or would be content living in a tent or wandering from place to place. I had a job, albeit not a great one, but I came to Austin to try and find something more stable. I mean, I hadn't really been on the job hunt long when you consider I was really having to take most of that time out to care for my ailing parents. I can see how it still doesn't look great to be sleeping on my sister's floor, but it wasn't something I had been doing for years, ya know? It's just hard to understand that she wouldn't consider that... I suppose it's possible though, but it seems like she could have given me a little time after my dad died. I don't think she was being kicked out or anything. I don't know, it's very frustrating, because she didn't ever say, "Look, here's the problem...". That tends to lead me to the good guy vs. bad boy assumption because, in the past, I have flat out been told that was the issue, among other superficial issues, including when I had more stability to offer, and I have seen the guys women get with after rejecting me. They usually don't seem like the better choice, often even stability-wise. But, don't misunderstand, if she had told me the real reason, I wouldn't be jumping to conclusions like that, which some people get mad at me for, but when someone won't give you the real reason, what else can you do? Just make your best educated guess, that's all.


Anyway, thank you for the details on your story. I can relate to a lot of it. I've got a lifetime of collectibles too, and I have been trying to sell some, but it hasn't worked out too well. Actually, I gave most of my Sailor Moon collectibles to this girl I've been speaking of as a birthday gift, since we are both big fans. I just kept a few things. Of course, people now tell me that was stupid and I should have sold whatever I didn't want. But, even when stuff is supposed to be valuable these days, I can never find buyers. I hear Ebay isn't even worth it anymore because it takes such a huge chunk of the profit.

I'm also concerned about what's going to happen to the stuff I want to keep though, if I'm not able to find a job and/or apartment in time, especially since my best stuff is up at my sister's place right now and I know I can't fit most of it in my car, and I may lose my car. You wouldn't happen to know of a good place online to get art commissions, would you? Ha, I've probably asked you that before. I know there are supposed to be places, but I can't find any that don't charge to join. Someone recently directed me to Fiverr, and I've been using it, but you basically make a dollar an hour on the gigs you get there, ha. Or, at least, the kind of gigs I've been offered. But, I take them anyway, because I need the 4 bucks (it's called Fiverr, but the site keeps one of the bucks). I'm also trying to setup with kickstarter to get some donations for my webcomic site, but they haven't set me up yet, and who knows if anyone will donate, and it's only for a temporary period of time, then you have to see if they'll let you do a new request. My webcomic site is set up with ipage, but I can't figure out how to monetize it, because all I know how to do is use drag and drop to set the page up, ha. That's a big reason I can't get any graphic designer jobs, despite it being the only thing I have experience in. I don't have ANY webdesign knowledge (nor animation or anything like that, even though I wanted to be a Disney animator originally; they told me what they wanted were people with fine art degrees, so I ended up with that useless thing, then they stopped hiring, ha), nor do I know much about programs other than Photoshop.

Anyways, I'm also concerned about income tax. I made almost 4,000 on art commissions this year. It's more than I've ever made on art commissions before, but it's also all I made this year, so I spent most of it on meals, gas, helping my sister with rent occasionally, and stuff like that. Add anything I get from Kickstarter, if I do get anything, and I might owe a hefty amount for a potentially homeless person, ha. I've never had to deal with taxes on art commissions because I've hardly every made any money from them, so I'm stressed about that right now too. *sigh*

[littlefuzzy]

Giving up so much on top of the very real fear of losing everything changed me. For the better I hope, but who knows. I still like to collect things (like Disney movies) but I'm far less attached to material possessions these days.

^ This!

I look at my DVD and game collection, I've spent thousands on it, but much of it isn't worth a lot. People don't want DVDs any more, they want Blu-Ray instead, and I've got so many games I'll never be able to play them all (much less BEAT them all.)

I've been having to pawn a lot of stuff, I only get $1 per DVD, and 5 for a TV season. DS games and such vary, but they aren't much either. I don't want to sell them outright for that price since I paid so much, but then I'm hit with the interest from the pawn shop.

Last night was particularly fun!

• The bank told me they were going to start foreclosure on the house if I didn't get my November payment in by today (even though I was less than a month late) so I had a carload of DVDs I was taking to the pawn shop (all of my Disney animated stuff and some anime sets.)
• My car ran out of gas about 5:30pm
• While I was looking for the gas can I carry in the car, I locked my keys in the car (with the lights on!)
• I called a friend and had to wait for him until around 6:30pm
• We tried to use a Slim Jim (the lock tool, not the meat stick) to get in the car, but neither of us could make it work.
• We went to my house, and had to break in through a window with an air conditioning unit to get my spare set of keys.
• When we got back, the car was GONE!!!
• I found out it had been towed, with a fee of $150 to pick it up.
• I also realized my insurance had expired (I thought it was for a year instead of 6 months) so I had to fork over ~$60 for the first payment for an insurance policy, and $21 for my tag (needed to show the yard proof of ownership)
• My neighbor took me to the towing yard so we could get the DVDs and go pawn them, so I'd have enough to pick up the car.
• When I went to get the car, I had to get a jump, since the battery had ran down.
• I had to dash home and find even MORE DVDs so I could cover the $400 house payment, and I managed to get to the bank about 20 minutes before they closed.
• Now I still have to come up with December's payment, or I'm in the same boat. I also have to come up with ~$270 or so to pay the interest on a huge box of TV seasons at the pawn shop, it was actually due on Sept. 1st!! Not to mention, I got a cut-off notice from the electric company, because I missed an installment plan payment.
• Oh yeah, I don't have any heat in the house, so I stay under a huge pile of blankets in my room.

I think I'm going to go stick my head in the oven now.

It's not gas, it's electric, so I'll just get a nice tan (that is, if both elements were working.)

[slave2moonlight]

Wow, Littlefuzzy, really sorry to hear all that! It's amazing how it never rains, it pours...

I've gotten less attached to material things in the past few years for two reasons. One is because I'm needing to sell stuff to make some extra money, but another is that I just became overwhelmed with so much stuff. Not like those hoarder people on TV, but just a lot of collectibles and movies. Both reasons have forced me to really start cherry picking, and I keep having to cherry pick from the cherries I already picked. Like enigmawing mentioned at one point, I may have to be ready to just pick out what I can fit in my car. I admit that I've kind of come to realize I can replace almost anything thanks to the glory that is Ebay. I think it's better for buyers than sellers these days. Not because you can get great deals all the time, but because you can usually find whatever you're looking for. BUT, I know I have some things that would be difficult if not impossible to replace, and I went through a lot of trouble to get them. Sure, they're just "things", but yeah, some of them will really be tough to try and get back... Plus, sometimes the value is in having the original item with the memories attached to it, not a duplicate.

[Elladorine]

Nathan, I guess I was just afraid of coming off as condescending or judgmental about your situation; money can be a touchy subject for a lot of people. And real-life situations often put a damper on our idealized visions of relationships, especially if we don't have a lot of experience.

Anyway, a job center is a place that has a free, self-service system you can use to look for job applications and post resumes. I'm not sure if they're common all across the states, but we had one near where I lived in Wisconsin. I do wish you luck on your job search! And here's a local place for you to check out in case things get worse before they get better: http://www.frontsteps.org/ . . .

It's rough when you can't even fall back on family, no matter the reason. I'd write more, but I'm absolutely exhausted at the moment . . . just had one of those life-altering moments that I'll probably start a thread about soon.

littlefuzzy: Yikes, hope things get better for you too! Yeah, it seems that discs don't offer much of a return investment these days. While I can't say I've ever looked at my collection as an "investment" (I doubt most of us do, right?), it's depressing to know how far down in value a lot of material things can get, especially if you're in need of quick cash. It's why I'm more likely to Redbox or stream movies instead of buying them these days, and why I do a lot more window shopping in general than I used to.

Not as bad of a situation as yours, but I still haven't been able to fix my car. It's been sitting in the parking lot of our condo since it broke down in August, and some tow company recently gave it one of those orange violation stickers, marking it abandoned and citing that the registration has expired. Well, we live there so it's not abandoned, and since we can't move it just yet we can't exactly do the smog test required to renew the registration. The sticker doesn't even have a phone number on it and I've been paranoid it's gonna be towed away at any moment; I suspect it's the work of our new and especially anal HOA.

Ah . . . and this reminds me of the days I had in my old, super-drafty house. My heat was never turned off, but in my bedroom it was cold enough to get frost on the inside of the windows. I spent months wrapped in blankets.

[littlefuzzy]

See if you can go to the tag agency and get a temporary non-functioning tag (or whatever they might call 'em.) It keeps the plate current, and marks it as not drivable.) That might keep the towing company off of you. It would be a LOT cheaper than getting towed, not only is there the towing fee ($150 in my case,) but they might charge 15 bucks a day or more if you don't get it immediately.

Also, the longer you wait for your expired tag, the more the fee will be (maybe $1-2 per day, up to $100 extra or more.)

Plus, based on my recent experience, you would probably have to have insurance to pick the car up, and maybe a current tag. You might also need your title, or a CURRENT registration (within the last 30 days.)

[slave2moonlight]

Well, just an update on this, but...

The girl who I was talking about before,... I don't know, that may not be over yet, and I hope not. We have continued to e-mail a little bit, and she's said she misses me "a lot". But, most recently, she wrote me this long e-mail about how frustrated she is with her boyfriend, how they seem to have nothing in common, and how she really wanted to be with someone, well, more like me. Again, that's frustrating, because, there I was. She knows how much I want to be with her, too. I think maybe you were at least partially right, enigmawing, that the fact that I didn't have a job or apartment may have played a factor. Also, just that she was so settled-in living with that other guy, having gotten pets together and everything. It's a bit unfair, I think, for someone to judge me for sleeping on my sister's floor for a year and not finding a job as if that was my life-plan, when my job search just had so many interruptions from the beginning in which I had to go help my sick and dying parents, but I guess something else about her situation is that she didn't know anyone else in town and had to have a roommate, and as she said again recently, is in a lease with him and everything... I think she might kinda want to be with me. But, she can't seem to flat out say it, for some reason. Maybe when I have my own place and job, she will, I don't know. In the meantime, it's just frustrating to know he is holding her every night.

[bradhig]

Its been a couple months since the Anastasia problem I posted occurred and now some idiot on IMDB thinks there is a demon putting ideas in my head and that time travel doesn't exist. Just cause it doesn't exist now doesn't mean it won't be invented in a century or so. Demons bah. I'm just trying to get on with my book and life. It still makes my blood boil. They also said get a therapist.

[slave2moonlight]

Time travel is a very interesting subject. Unfortunately, I hit a wall on it when I came to realize (or believe, however you would put it), that there is no past or present, only the moment we exist in. In other words, past and future are just labels we use for the sake of talking about events. The fact that there are major scientists out there who are starting to believe in Time Travel gives some hope that I'm wrong on this, but I don't buy it yet. Having said that, I still LOVE time travel movies.

[Goliath]

Its been a couple months since the Anastasia problem I posted occurred and now some idiot on IMDB thinks there is a demon putting ideas in my head and that time travel doesn't exist. Just cause it doesn't exist now doesn't mean it won't be invented in a century or so. Demons bah. I'm just trying to get on with my book and life. It still makes my blood boil. They also said get a therapist.

Er... maybe that wouldn't be such a bad idea.

Anyway, time travel will never be invented, because, had it really been invented in the future, somebody sure would've traveled to our time and told us about it and how we could invent it quicker. So yeah, it's nonsense, and if that notion "makes your blood boil", then yeah, maybe take the advice they gave you.

[bradhig]

I believe time travel is invented in the future however real time travelers would not want us to know they are there. The idea behind my book is that no one knows that the Romanov's get saved because of the way they do it. They preserve history rather then mess it up in the process of saving people.

[ajmrowland]

And who said it has to go mainstream anyway?

[bradhig]

Do you mean the book or time travel? Of course I want the book to go mainstream. No point in writing it if it doesn't.